I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

you cannot feed someone truth

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

like first name

as in

sorry i am texting like a slav

we can only engage in such a way

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

no i haven't really read anything

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

so at the end

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

It Will Get Lighter

all that is to say