a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

but i respect your search

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

It Will Get Lighter

really i want the internet

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

currently

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

it is hopeful

and the fake qualifier

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

I Write Goodbye Letter

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

you know who you are. no more time, not like

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Today I felt like starting

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

was it worth it