with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

so at the end

Better Lift

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

Rain, starting

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

autonomy of learning

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

Better Lift

you have a beautiful account btw

as in

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.