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part of an old note. It will get lighter.

sorry i am texting like a slav

your feed looks like my tumblr

fw

or never left

It Will Get Lighter

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

autonomy of learning

is everyoneback on tumblr now

It Will Get Lighter

yeah

and the fake qualifier

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

ahnaf abrar

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

the site i am dreaming

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls

i want to do that too

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

lol

much more tactility

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

i really havent

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

so at the end

send your tumblr

so an active mazelike process

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mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

Dreams like these are highly symbolic and emotionally intense. Here’s a breakdown of common interpretations: