i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

all that is to say

division of reality is straying away from it

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

really i want the internet

we can only engage in such a way

magnetisation/form

no like which do people call me

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason


like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

i want to do that too

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

as in

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

not their contents

i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine