I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

currently

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

Style

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

so the method has to be autonomous

1

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

its performative

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

feel you

we need to be deconstructing our identities

13, H, grate

you cannot feed someone truth

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

have you read

i love it here

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

was it worth it

sorry i am texting like a slav