He was a proper old-fashioned London geezer (cringe word, hate it, can't think of a better one, worst of all it's the correct word), kind of East Endy, kind of Real London, the kind you don't really meet but if you do it always feels like an uncanny immersive theatre experience. They're anachronistic. They only belong in the London collectively imagined by people who don't spend any time in it.

its good

yeah

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

Like the tide, it comes in and it washes over the beach. It's beautiful. But like the tide it goes out, sometimes it goes out further than it ever has, it recedes back across the beach and further out beyond the horizon. The bare seabed opens up in front of you and all you can do is look at it.

plato

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

i was tempted to lie about my name

Lift Analysis

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

hiding from the rain

was it worth it

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river. I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the dim silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank. They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

propensity within someone

this will be about a slug

Rain, starting

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression


The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.


your feed looks like my tumblr

send link

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

Worse Lift

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

send your tumblr

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

It Will Get Lighter

but i respect your search

2 (actually index). two is company


Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation