Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
Thank you, Jack
Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.
is everyoneback on tumblr now
...
feel you
no i haven't really read anything
The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.
barren land
"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"
i want to do that too
there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.
yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf
i dont understand magnetisation
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
ahnaf abrar
that looks like my instagram account
really i want the internet
send your tumblr
lol yea
your feed looks like my tumblr
in a post. I want to be remembered
so the method has to be autonomous
it is hopeful