part of an old note. It will get lighter.

And thank you for telling me that the manner in which the narrator consistently fails to act morally is really compelling. Fuck you.

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.


Like the tide, it comes in and it washes over the beach. It's beautiful. But like the tide it goes out, sometimes it goes out further than it ever has, it recedes back across the beach and further out beyond the horizon. The bare seabed opens up in front of you and all you can do is look at it.

It Will Get Lighter

2 (actually index). two is company

Slug

...


and the fake qualifier


i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

god being the centre magnet

it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

barren land

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

magnetisation/form

Thank you, Jack

i was tempted to lie about my name

December 2025

We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.

sorry i am texting like a slav

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

like magnets