We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river. I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the dim silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank. They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

i love it here

It Will Get Lighter

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

fw

yeah

we need to be deconstructing our identities

idk



ion

lol yea

It Will Get Lighter

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

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ahnaf abrar

i was tempted to lie about my name

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

autonomy of learning

magnetises a pin

in a post. I want to be remembered

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

i want to do that too

He was a proper old-fashioned London geezer (cringe word, hate it, can't think of a better one, worst of all it's the correct word), kind of East Endy, kind of Real London, the kind you don't really meet but if you do it always feels like an uncanny immersive theatre experience. They're anachronistic. They only belong in the London collectively imagined by people who don't spend any time in it.

I imagine that some lab-grown 29-year-old from Woking with a mind honed to identify individuals who fit the profile of Real Londoner (as conceived of by 50 opinion-polled racist builders and their wives in the Midlands) picks a stubborn local who can still somehow afford to live here and passes him along to some creative studio.