i understand

i really havent

December 2025


bro i read nothing in my life

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

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After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

Better Lift


the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Slug

no longer writing in the third person

It Will Get Lighter


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Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

division of reality is straying away from it

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

all that is to say

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

so the method has to be autonomous

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

you cannot feed someone truth