the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

...

Slug

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

Lift Analysis

you know who you are. no more time, not like

1

. way too specific.

really i want the internet

Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

Rain, starting

was it worth it

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

13, H, grate

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

much more tactility

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression