After I get away from the old racist failed actor, I go to see my Korean colleague. He's just arrived in London and I want to see how he's handling the party. We'd been invited as fresh meat for some of the older, gayer attendees. We aren't aware of that.

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

"Put a blanket."

so at the end

autonomy of learning

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

I am below everything.

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

The old failed actor genuinely believed this girl was of a lesser race. He believed she shouldn't be talking with me, shouldn't be here at this party, shouldn't be here in this country. He wanted a white England. I didn't really challenge him on it. Sometimes I justify it with thoughts like I was drunk, or baffled, or it isn't an argument I'll win, or he can't hear me anyway, or whatever. I didn't argue with him. I just cut off his rant and left with a pathetic "In a bit."

i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

Lift Analysis

isaac

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

whats your name?

I catch him on his way to the bar, telling him about this old racist failed actor that I'm avoiding. That I'm failing to confront. I get the sense he's avoiding people too. We get our drinks and find a corner. We chat for a bit. He's managing just fine.

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

god being the centre magnet

we can only engage in such a way

but really the thing should be autonomous

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

so i or you can author smaller fragments that get arranged

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

My inability to confront the old racist failed actor is distracting me. I decide not to tell her about it.


i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it