Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

as in

its performative

...

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

all that is to say

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

and the fake qualifier

Slug

isaac newton

It Will Get Lighter

i was tempted to lie about my name

i understand

the site i am dreaming

ahnaf abrar

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

Thank you, Jack

god being the centre magnet

feel you

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying