My inability to confront the old racist failed actor is distracting me. I decide not to tell her about it.
Better Lift
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
it is hopeful
magnetisation/form
somewhere between instagram and chatgpt
brb i will read and reply sincerely
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation
There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.
"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
as in
hiding from the rain
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13
I'm getting bored and he can tell, so he shifts the topic towards me. He tells me he'd spotted me chatting to a girl earlier, a black girl, and asks what I thought of her, if I liked her. I mimed affirmatively.