Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

much more tactility

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

bro i read nothing in my life

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

all that is to say

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my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given

propensity within someone

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

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yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

autonomy of learning

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

we can only engage in such a way

the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book

like magnets

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities