something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

abrar?

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

and the fake qualifier

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

what do you mean

you cannot feed someone truth

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

Rain, starting

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

what do you think my name is

ahnaf abrar

so an active mazelike process

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

whats your name?

all that is to say

idk

its good

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

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is this you as well

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation