Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story
a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling
something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever
but the thinking is useful
the textwall is as much for me as it is for you
Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41
it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!
Lift Analysis
you know who you are. no more time, not like
1
. way too
specific.
and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more
personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more
romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
somewhere between instagram and chatgpt
"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of
some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.
okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
no like which do people call me
my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist
for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the
taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because
at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given
