in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

so the method has to be autonomous

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given

not their contents

its good

1

i love it here

propensity within someone

as in

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

December 2025

I Write Goodbye Letter

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

its performative

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

It Will Get Lighter

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

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isaac newton