the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

really i want the internet

i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

but i respect your search

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

you have a beautiful account btw

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

much more tactility

we can only engage in such a way

all that is to say

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

magnetises a pin

i love it here

so at the end

no longer writing in the third person


plato

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation 

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i want to do that too

no like which do people call me

division of reality is straying away from it

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

i was tempted to lie about my name

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

like first name

December 2025