the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

hiding from the rain

it is hopeful


IWGD


it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

no longer writing in the third person


much more tactility

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

and the fake qualifier

god being the centre magnet

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

its good

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24