we want to live the knowledge too live the content
A roll of 50s is one of the items he dumps onto my table during the search. Of
course it is. He asks if I'm a delivery boy or a setter or this or that
diamond related job. I keep saying no, I'm enjoying hearing all of these new
words. Eventually I tell him that I work in film, which is kind of true. He
asks where I'm filming. I'm not filming. He tells me that I can't be that good
at it then. He then tells me that he made a film once, in the 80s. It was
called Pimlico Rats.
He was cast as the guy who gets picked up and thrown out of the poker game to
set the scene before the main characters arrive. Out of Real London and into
real London, a discarded prop, at this party, chatting to me.
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging
that looks like my instagram account
Rain, starting
but i respect your search
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03
i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i
didn’t watch it then
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry
class