i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

its good

i love it here

god being the centre magnet

like magnets

magnetises a pin

is everyoneback on tumblr now

plato

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

sorry i am texting like a slav

stalgivc is the greatest poster of all time

send your tumblr

barren land

thank you

no i haven't really read anything

have you read

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

is this you as well

⚠️ Live Document Forever ⚠️

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

Rain, starting

not so on: yvf(wthw)

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

so at the end

It's loud and he's gone deaf in one ear, so I don't think he's really hearing anything I'm trying to say. We're both pretty drunk too. It's making for a kind of surreal interactive Business Insider YouTube video of a conversation. He talks, waits for my response, sees my mouth moving but doesn't hear my words, then he imagines something in their place, and replies to that. At least I don't really have to do anything but drink and mime and listen to a lot of bullshit fake gangster talk, being an actor, boxing, the old days, blah blah blah.

yes

The only real Londoner remaining is old, bitter, kept around for entertainment, defined by tropes from 30+ years ago. They play gangsters in films, or they work in a pie and mash shop, or they go on Business Insider's YouTube channel to tell you about their crimes. And they somehow still find the time to spend all day hanging about cafes and pubs for you to bump into, to remind you of Real London.

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

feel you

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.