i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

Lift Analysis

no longer writing in the third person

currently

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

December 2025

It Will Get Lighter

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

We stand there laughing. The fireworks go off behind him.

in a post. I want to be remembered

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.

Better Lift

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

it is hopeful