Today I felt like starting

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

Rain, starting

Better Lift

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

hiding from the rain

you have a beautiful account btw

It Will Get Lighter

"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."

yes

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

ahnaf abrar

as in

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

is this you as well

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?