all that is to say

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

no longer writing in the third person

send link

theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine

brb i will read and reply sincerely

magnetisation/form

so at the end

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

yeah

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

FOUNDING DOCUMENT

or never left

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

It Will Get Lighter

i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls

stalgivc is the greatest poster of all time

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

have you read

i love it here

yes

your feed looks like my tumblr

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

It Will Get Lighter

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

we need to be deconstructing our identities

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

no like which do people call me

that looks like my instagram account

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.