I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

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It Will Get Lighter

13, H, grate

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

but i respect your search

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

It Will Get Lighter

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

i was tempted to lie about my name

or never left

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

is everyoneback on tumblr now

what do you think my name is

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

i want to do that too

send your tumblr

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

i really havent

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49