hiding from the rain

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

in a post. I want to be remembered

you cannot feed someone truth

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

what do you think my name is

feel you

the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book

Today I felt like starting

its performative

division of reality is straying away from it

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

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there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

13, H, grate

sorry i am texting like a slav

December 2025