My inability to confront the old racist failed actor is distracting me. I decide not to tell her about it.

but really the thing should be autonomous

Today I felt like starting

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Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

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After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

Lift Analysis

I'm sat out the front of a cafe in Hatton Garden. I've just eaten a brie and bacon panini, and I'm rolling a cigarette. Feeling very London. An old man comes up to me and asks for a roll-up. I oblige.

It's loud and he's gone deaf in one ear, so I don't think he's really hearing anything I'm trying to say. We're both pretty drunk too. It's making for a kind of surreal interactive Business Insider YouTube video of a conversation. He talks, waits for my response, sees my mouth moving but doesn't hear my words, then he imagines something in their place, and replies to that. At least I don't really have to do anything but drink and mime and listen to a lot of bullshit fake gangster talk, being an actor, boxing, the old days, blah blah blah.

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

The Hatton geezer (fuck off) reminds me of this old failed actor who I'd met at a party a few years ago, another man out of time and out of place. This actor had scored a minor role in Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels and never really let go of it, had gone on to build his whole identity around it. I can't really blame him.

no longer writing in the third person

yeah

Thank you, Jack

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

this will be about a slug

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17