My inability to confront the old racist failed actor is distracting me. I
decide not to tell her about it.
I imagine that some lab-grown 29-year-old from Woking with a mind honed to
identify individuals who fit the profile of Real Londoner (as conceived of by
50 opinion-polled racist builders and their wives in the Midlands) picks a
stubborn local who can still somehow afford to live here and passes him along
to some creative studio.
Actual
born-Londoners aren't
LARPing like this, they sold their shite family home for a million
pounds and moved to Malaga years
ago. They have their culture and they've taken it elsewhere.
Dreams like these are highly symbolic and emotionally intense. Here’s a
breakdown of common interpretations:
it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
Lift Analysis
you know who you are. no more time, not like
1
. way too
specific.
Pimlico Rats
part of an old note. It will get lighter.
2 (actually index). two is company
confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with
it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.
Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.
that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create
within and also produce works from.
She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just
their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them
in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's
using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their
voices are betraying them.
i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls
this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet
really i want the internet
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