I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

Better Lift

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

no longer writing in the third person

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

Lift Analysis

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

hiding from the rain

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos